Not my 100 things

I started out writing a 100 things about me. I thought that would be the best way to start out. I got to seventy nine and saved it as a draft. I was getting way to daring with what I was sharing! I don't really want anyone who knows me to find this and figure out it's me. I don't want to have to sensor anything I write to not offend those said people. Ya, ya, a lot of blogs I read have said this very same thing, only to have to change blogs because of this very reason. I am guilty of it myself. I did have another blog but I seem to have given it up. Not that anyone I know found it because it was private. There was just one person that I actually knew that read it. But I some how found that I wasn't writing what I wanted to write. I think I didn't want that person to worry about me, and some of the things I have been going through. I think everyone wants to keep some things from even the closest people to them. Does that even make sense?

So I guess I will share a little about me, seeing how I chickened out on the 100 things! I am a single parent. I have great kids, no really they are. Amazing kids for what they have been through. My ex is not in the picture in any way shape or form. He just decided it was too hard to be a part time dad. Then decided a couple years later that he didn't want to pay child support anymore. And a shame because his children loved him a lot. And he actually was a pretty good father. I have tried to find him, so has CSS. I do know were he is. I just can't prove it at the moment. I am not sure I really want to anymore.

I seem to be going through a lot of changes in my life over the past several years but, at the same time feel so stuck. Does that make any sense? There is so much I would like to do but just don't seem to be able to for one reason or another. Some are excuses, some are just that I can't because of things that are beyond my control right now. Kids ya know! Ok I don't really want this to become just a whine lol. Not that I won't be doing a lot of whining! Hey no one might even read any of this. It's a big, big blog world out there!

I am thinking of going back to school. I just don't know what I want to be when I grow up lol. Well I do have some idea's but, that brings us to the beyond my control, with still having minor children at the moment. Some of these things would require travel. That's just not possible at this time in my life. Going back to school means money, which I don't really have. It also means working it around a work and children schedule's. Ya, excuses, I know! I guess thats it for today.